Goodbye

On my way back home, I kept thinking about how this is my last day at Maktab Sains. There was a tear inside my heart and it kept getting bigger and bigger. There was a time when I looked forward to this day, but when the day itself arrives...I feel like absolute shit. I held back my tears in the car, biasalah control macho..But when I got into my room I let loose.

I just can't believe today was my last day at school. I can't imagine myself not going to MS and see my friends, joking and fooling around with them. Be capi capi nya orang. And worst of all some of them I've just gotten to know. I regret not befriending them earlier. I was a quiet reserved boy, and I regret that. I could've made much more friends. Don't get me wrong though, I did make a lot of friends, all of them great and special in their own right. It just kills me inside knowing that I won't get to see them much anymore...

I don't want to erase you guys from my life. It's been great and I will cherish every memory. God time flies by so fast. I remember my first day at MS, getting inside the hall. Seeing all the students with their parents. Except for me, my parents didn't come along. Sitting in front of Mateen and commenting on his braces without realizing he's the son of our Sultan. I was young and foolish. Heh I remember my first crush. I told her my feelings and got shot down. That was probably why I don't have the guts to tell anyone my feelings...because I'm afraid of getting hurt again.

Back in the form 1,2 and 3 days. Me, Naqiu, Faiq and Bokh were inseparable. But after P.M.B. I guess being in separate classes we drifted apart. But I guess that's expected, people change. I myself changed quite a lot. Just as the universe expands, so do us humans.
It was during form 5 and Pra-U 1 that I made a lot more friends. Acquaintances became buddies. Inside jokes invented. Nicknames were created. I regret the fact that I only started being more social this year. U.I.C forever. I will miss messing around with you guys at school, I'm gonna miss playing football with you guys, I'm gonna miss staying back and doing nothing with you guys, I'm gonna miss playing counter-strike with you guys. I'm gonna miss the 'UIC' corner at the canteen.
I'm gonna miss the lasagna 'soup'.

I am worried. Worried that I won't be able to see you guys often, if any at all. I just hope you will remember me, because I sure as hell won't forget you.

Udah eh basah karang keyboard ku. All the best for your 'A' levels everyone. I know you guys will do great. Kalau inda ku tikam kau.